Placement Value

         I have decided that I am going to take this blogging opportunity to basically use this as a journal entry of sorts. I seriously miss that about grade school, I loved having journal time. Since I only have one follower this should be fairly easy as far as transparency goes lol. 

  ~One thing God has been doing lately has been challenging my obedience. Every day feels like a new day to try and figure this whole thing out. I know that his mercies are new everyday and on that I rely. 

I struggle with placement value.. I know your thoughts immediately went to math lol no I struggle with my placement value in the sense that in the body of Christ my place or where my placement is and my value. I am not sure why I feel so off with my place, but sure enough everything I get into even down to praying out loud feels like I am doing something wrong. Like I am constantly being critiqued and weighed on how well I am doing. I am sure my time at T-Mobile didnt do me any favors.
~ So I knew I needed to make some changes, a friend of mine recommended this book, " The Root of Rejection" by Joyce Meyer, So far I am loving it and hating it. I am forced to face the things that have kept my excuses up and my walls "guarding" me. If you read my last post you know that walls and security is a big thing to me.

The truth is, I do have a root of rejection I believe it began really young and just worsened in my massive awkward phase. I love this book because in it she talks about what the word "Secure" means in the Greek. It means to have "FULL COMMAND" in this she talks about how we have a blood bought right to have full command. Which means I can lead my life with out fear or anxiety of what other people will think. 

It helps me realize that I have value in what ever placement I may have in the body of Christ, and I bring Value! It's a process but I am excited to try and walk out this work that he is beginning in me. I know it may not be easy but I believe that he holds keys to unlock these chains of "people pleasing" that have been bound around me for so long.I still have a long way to go in the book, but after some break through yesterday, I look forward to the new things in store for today.